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The end of a semester,
The new start,
Holidays always serve as a buffer for me to get ready for another semester

Every semester,
Hoping for some change,
Keep wondering if this coming semester is going to make a difference
No more confusion, no more burnout and no more misery
Though will this semester be another same old semester,
Stay at the same spot
Watching, wishing and doing nothing

Careful planning,
Hoping to implement all these great plans,
To make some change,
If change is a habit,
When will I start to have that habit?
Will it be another two or three semesters
Before I make a difference?
Before I get out of this relapse cycle?
Feel lost all the time,
Feel that I have never been so clear all the time,
All I want is to have the strength to improve and become better

Since when, it has become so hard to do everything
Is it because we have all grown up,
And start to lose senses
Or start to know where we stand in this world?